God I need help tonight, she’s been acting kinda strange lately and I asked her a question that I was worried might upset her. The questions quickly went to read then all of my other messages were stuck on sent. She sent me a lovey dovey message just an hour ago but I know she’s backed out before, so she could always back out of the trip at this point. I just want D-Day to come already. I’ve been doing life for 3 years without her in it, and I am craving some time alone with her. The she has planned for us are beautiful, absolutely stunning. The food, nothing less than the absolute best. She’s planned out all the stops carefully, and expects to make lots of new friends and save new souls on the way. But the question remains, will she back out again? 2 weeks to D-Day, and everything is in place. I am praying against all odds that this works out in our favor. I do not have peace with thinking about what could happen if she doesn’t come pick me up on D-Day. I could not live the same if D-Day came and went and my woman did not show herself. My whole life has led me to this moment. I would feel as if I had failed God if I screwed something up. God tonight I am scared, so God please help me tonight.